I’m trying to finish up the last few minutes of work today, but my mind has been elsewhere. Mostly thinking what the hell are we thinking. We are going to attempt a 3rd IVF round at a new clinic with our parts.
We had two consultations this week and will have another next week. Before proceeding, we are going to do a battery of tests. They start Friday for me. I’m not sure if I’m emotionally ready to be medically violated so soon after the last round. I’m running again, I have a half marathon coming up, I’m almost back to my pre-IVF weight. I’m not sure if I’m emotionally healed and prepared enough to start another round. I was teary all last week; I blamed that on hormones. I’m still crying this week; I doubt it is all hormone related. I know we are not financially ready. Our bank accounts have never been this depleted. Farewell our winter vacation to Arizona.
I’m ready to become a parent. I was ready to become one years before we actively started trying three years ago.We are not ready to give up on the fertility treatments. So here we are again.